So now I'm 22! I have a lovely shiny (red) netbook which I'm writing this on. My birthday was so exciting, I went to London to see The Lion King which I have never seen before. It was Yiannis's first trip to a theatre. He liked it (I think).

I have been suffering from low confidence recently, especially in regards to looking for jobs. I went to apply for Jobseekers Allowance on Friday and they found vacancies for me. I found it quite demeaning as they were quite low below my level. Other jobs I found for myself are the same sort of jobs that I did when I was 16. I found it hard-going. I suppose other graduates are finding it quite hard too. The problem is I have had no training for anything and no direction to head in. I don't know what I am suited to do, I have no idea what I could do. Maybe I should go into teaching even though I swore I never would.

I feel ridiculously stupid and inexperienced. Because of this, I'm deliberately sabotaging my opportunities as I don't think I'm able to do certain jobs. I don't think I'm able to do anything really. Other people around me don't seem to understand how I feel.